I am so happy to say that yesterday was my official last day of high school. I really wish that I was one of those people who can say that they really enjoyed school. But I’m not, so there’s no point on pretending. For me, school was something that I dreaded. I would literally feel sick at the thought of walking through the school gates every morning. This wasn’t because I found it boring or ‘pointless’. This was because school didn’t really agree with me. I kind of feel as though nobody really understood me because they all had pre-assumptions about who I was, and the kind of person that I am.
I have been in the same school for the last 5 years, from year 7 – year 11. At the very start of high school, I made friends with the wrong people and joined the wrong social group. They were the ‘popular’ girls and at the time I was more concerned about how others saw me rather than actually learning. Anyway, I ended up getting bad grades and a lot of people saw me as the type of person who didn’t care about my education. This wasn’t the case, I wanted good grades, I just couldn’t be bothered to work for them.
Two years passed and I had just started year 9. Reality set in and I realised I only had a year to get my grades up before starting my GCSEs. And I did. I completely cut off my social group and literally had no friends. So I became the ‘loner’. Not only was I doing badly in school, but I was being bullied because I was a nobody. To be honest, this wasn’t much of a surprise because I had been bullied most of the way through school. The only difference this time, was that I brought it on myself.
After a while, my grades improved and some teachers began to notice. My geography teacher told me that I made the right decision and that she had seen me make huge improvements with my grades. It was then that I realised that what my mum had been telling me was true. I can do anything that I put my mind to. I focused more on my school work and ended up finding myself in a new social group. This is the same group that I stayed friends with for the next three years of school. I was no longer the ‘loner’ getting bad grades.
Not everything went smoothly from then on. Teachers had their pre-assumptions about me. They lacked faith in me and continuously put me down and told me that I couldn’t do things or that there was no way I would achieve the grades that I wanted. Instead of listening to these comments, I ignored them and did what I thought was best for me. It paid off. Now it’s just a waiting game until I get my exam results back.
I’ve now finished school completely and it really is a relief that I never have to go back there and deal with both students and teachers constantly putting me down and saying that I can’t do something. I can now enjoy a stress free summer and I’m actually looking forward to starting college in September.
- Never listen to people that put you down, you are who you are, that isn’t going to change. The only thing you can do is to be the best you can possibly be.
- You can do whatever you put your mind to. It isn’t up to anybody else to decide what is or isn’t within your limitations.
- Focus on school work and grades rather than how popular you are. It pays off.
- Don’t tolerate bullying. It is never okay.
- Most importantly, never put yourself down. If you want to do something, do it. Never tell yourself that you can’t.